RL with Ken

[redlikecrimson]

Since he'd been sharing a bed with Ken, Aya found he'd been able to sleep more peacefully. He hadn't found himself having a nightmare in quite awhile and he'd almost forgotten what it was like to actually be able to just rest. Tonight though, his body had other plans.

At first it wasn't obvious. His face became a frown but there was no other indication that anything might be wrong. It was at that time that his dream started to become darker, almost as if it were twisting into terrible things just to torment him properly. He didn't want to see these visions but there they were, haunting his rest.

So, he started to shift in his sleep, unusual since he typically could remain still the entire time. And he remained unaware of the fact that he might disturb Ken.

Comments

[redlikecrimson]

"Mostly the same things I usually do."

Since he internalized a lot, there was plenty that could go through his mind on any given day.

[wasabloodknight]

Oh Aya. Ken knew you far too well. Shaking his head, he sighed.

"So way too much, then."

[redlikecrimson]

"You say that like I think too much."

Though really, he was sure that it wasn't too far from the truth.

[wasabloodknight]

"So what did you dream about."

Of course, there was no way Ken was going to agree that yes, he thought Aya thought too much. He always even if he didn't realize it.

[redlikecrimson]

"What those dreams usually are about. The people I've lost, the people I've abandoned, the people I've killed. Usually there's blood and Kikyou telling me I'm a monster and that it's pointless for me to seek out redemption."

One would think that he'd be used to them by now but he never could find it in him to get over the dreams. Maybe because some part of him still believed the words were too close to the truth for comfort.

[wasabloodknight]

Ken knew that getting used to the dreams never really happened. Sure, they'd come and go, even disappearing for long enough to make them wonder if they'd finally gotten over them, but they always seemed to come back.

"You've never been a monster, Ran. You never will be. You did the things you did because you had to."

[redlikecrimson]

Hearing those words from Ken was soothing so he said nothing right away. Aya wanted to memorize the sound of them first. It was sad that he needed the comfort but he could change the facts that this was helping.

"I question myself often." No matter how confident he came across, he still questioned himself multiple times a day in the hopes of making sure he hadn't changed for the worse.

[wasabloodknight]

The silence was fine. He knew he he was thinking again, but as long as it wasn't destructive thinking, it was alright.

When Aya spoke again, he tightened his arms in a warm hug.

"I know you do. You always have."

[redlikecrimson]

"You see right through me, don't you."

It wasn't even a question. Honestly, he was grateful to have someone that understood him like this. It took more weight off his shoulders than he would ever admit to.

[wasabloodknight]

That pulled a soft chuckle from Ken before he leaned down enough to brush a kiss to the crown of Aya's head.

"We've been friends for a long time, Ran. "

[redlikecrimson]

"We have."

Looking up, he opened his eyes so he could watch Ken's face through the shadows of the room. "Having you do that would have irritated me when we first met."

[wasabloodknight]

"Oh? Well, everything irritated you when we first met."

He met Aya's gaze with a faint smile.

[redlikecrimson]

"'Truer words were never spoken.'"

He said the words in English since it sounded better that way before switching back to Japanese. "At least I grew past that."

[wasabloodknight]

The little language switch earned Aya a bit of a poke to his side.

"No English in bed."

[redlikecrimson]

Aya blinked at the poke, jolting a bit since it startled him.

"You poked me."

[wasabloodknight]

And Ken just smiled.

"You've grown a lot since I met you. Why don't you realize that?"

[redlikecrimson]

"I see some things."

He at least got that much. It was better than not seeing anything, right?