RL with Ken

[redlikecrimson]

[Honestly he's not sure what to make of the gift basket he got. He's not even sure how he got it. It shouldn't be possible and yet.

No, it's definitely here.

So Aya sighs and takes it down the hall where he knocks on Ken's door. He's still in shock and has no words. And as soon as he has permission to enter the room, he walks in and sets the basket down in front of Ken.

There...is no explanation for this. It's better to just...show him.]

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[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

There's nothing to keep between us, either, but they don't seem to realize that.



I just don't want any weirdness, you know.

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

...If there is nothing between us why would there be any weirdness?

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

Well, between Eris and all the crap with Greed and Harumi and everything. It makes things seem... weird. I don't know how to explain it.

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

[Aya just nods then studies the wall for a moment as if it's fascinating.]

I understand what you mean.

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

... look, I'm sorry. For getting you dragged into this.

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

[Absolutely fascinating things. And Aya's going to smile a little now.]

You have nothing to apologize for, Ken. This isn't your fault.

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

Maybe not, but it's still complicated our lives more than they need to be.

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

I haven't found that to be the thing that's complicated our lives. The arrival of the community, yes. But not this.

[He's just going to be perfectly honest about that.]

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

[He pauses and looks down at his lap, gathering his thoughts.]

If you think about it, we're looking out for each other already. People pointing out that it looks like something more isn't a complication. If there is nothing there then we ignore it. That's all that needs to be done.

It's the security risk that's the complication. We have to be careful about what they learn. [He pushes some hair from his face.]

Maybe the real question is...why should it bother us if there is nothing there?

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

... and does it bother you, Aya?

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

What truly bothers me is that they won't leave you alone. You've had enough hardships in your life.

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

We both have. That still doesn't answer my question.

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

...I'm bothered that I don't know how you feel about the idea...

[His voice is quiet, unsure.]

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

[Aya really has no words beyond that. He's not one to open up about things ever so that was hard enough.]

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

... I wouldn't have followed you if you weren't important to me.

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't have told you that I would follow you anywhere if you weren't important to me as well.

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

Are those really answers?

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

[Aya smiles a bit.]

I would only go into a relationship with someone I trust and someone who knows my sins. Honestly, I've avoided things like this because I haven't felt I deserved to have that kind of happiness again.

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

You've always been so hard on yourself. Even when you were a jerk. You're the only one that thinks you didn't deserve to be happy.

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

[He blinks and looks over at Ken.]

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

Of anyone, you're the one that deserves it. Why do you think I keep telling you to call your sister? That's a start.

[Is that a bit of a smile on Ken's face.]

[redlikecrimson.livejournal.com]

I thought...she could find happiness without me there...

[Yes, he really thinks that.]

[wasabloodknight.livejournal.com]

Oh shut up. She'd be thrilled to hear from you and you'd be happy to talk to her. You need to quit assuming when it comes to everyone else's happiness and just work on your own.