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This is Aya. I am not available now.

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[ooc: Mark if IC or OOC and what game you are from.]

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Why indeed. There is no explanation other than I simply do.

Aya, if I didn't know better, sometimes I'd swear you were courting me.

I don't think I'd be any good at courting anyone anyway.

No, people just fall for you without you trying.

It would be better if they didn't fall for me.

That's what I've been trying to do.

[There's a long pause before he speaks again.]

You can do what you like with your gift, Soma. It's yours now.

[There's a lot of long pauses between them these days. If they were face to face, it would be even more awkward.]

I don't know what I want anymore, Aya.

Try to think less on it, Soma. Sometimes our instincts will guide us to the path we need to go.

My instincts are torn in two. You know how I feel.

I also know you tend to push me away any chance you have.

I don't want to be hurt again. And I don't want Ken to be hurt, either.

Pain of the heart is always the most difficult to come back from.

If there was no Ken... I'd try. But he doesn't deserve to be hurt just for the sake of my happiness.

Nor do you deserve suffering.

You don't know that.

I do know that.

What if this is karma?

What if it's just self punishment?

I don't know what it is. But every time I start to feel happiness, it's taken away.

I've known that before.

Then you know why I'm afraid.

Likely better than most.

But it still doesn't give me the right to separate you from Ken.

Soma, I won't try to change your mind. I only ask that you not give up on your own happiness.

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